Worried But Not Consumed

I've never been in a relationship. I mean sure I've been asked out or been confessed to but that was way back in middle school. That spelled the end of any love letters or confessions. In high school, I don't think anyone ever really noticed me (in that way of course).

And while I've met people in college, they're either in long term relationships or they don't swing my way. Or they're focused on other things. My parents are getting worried, okay mostly my mother. She's worried that I'll be alone and a spinster. She's also worried that if I get into a relationship later in life that once it ends (if it ends), I won't know how to deal with it because I don't have any other experience.

I mean...yes it is worrisome that I've never been in a relationship before. I actually thought it was the norm until I found out most people dated in high school and had sex (yes, i knew people had sex but I was quite surprised by the numbers. I thought it was just an inflation of statistics used by the media. guess not.). I mean that got me a bit worried but while I meet people and I'm friends with them...I've never been able to build a deeper connection. Or maybe I'm too picky?

Relationships confuse me. Maybe it's just life telling me I'm not ready...