I'm a 19 year old female who has never had a boyfriend, been on a date, or been kissed. (I suppose I don't need to add I've never had sex either--not that I mind, since I'm waiting for marriage.)
There have been numerous times when the subject of boyfriends and kissing would come up and I either lied and said I have been kissed, or shamefully admitted the truth.
In all of my life, only two guys "legitimately" asked me out. (Legitimately meaning it wasn't some random man on the street who "hollas" at every woman)
The first time was when I was 12 and I freaked out and turned him down--which I regretted the next week and developed a crush on him that never went anywhere.
The second time I was a 17 and senior in high school. A freshman guy said he liked me. He wasn't really my type though (immature and a bit insensitive) so I kindly rejected him.
Sometimes, I have some crazy urges to go to a club and make out with the first decent looking guy I see. (I wouldn't do anything more than that though.) I just feel so lonely and desperate.
For a while, I managed to convince myself that I didn't care and I didn't need/want a boyfriend. But something changed just over the weekend and I just want to meet someone ASAP.
Many times though, I can't imagine myself actually having a boyfriend, or being on a date, or kissing a guy. It seems as impossible as stopping time or turning invisible.
I'd like to be proven wrong