26 Never Have Been Loved
I'm 26, and I feel very sorry for myself.
I have never loved. Not the kind of love you feel for a family member, but LOVE. The kind we all hope to find. The kind that sticks with you through all.
Sometimes I think that I will end up alone. Dying without ever knowing Love, makes me think that my life was a waste. All Humans long to love.All humans long to feel wanted, to be needed.
As a teenager, I use to look at the thousands of sunsets over the ocean and I always told myself that someday someone would be wrapping their arms around me during one of these sunsets. I would never have to watch a sunset alone.
A lot of years have gone by, and I've yet to feel arms around me in a tender embrace.
What's wrong with me? Loneliness. I live in a country that I hate, where I feel different and my self esteem goes out the door. I've always hated living here. I always felt different, but not different good, different bad. I don't have blonde hair, blue eyes. I am not skinny. I am me, opposite of all that is wanted by the average white male. (is that racist? I hope not) But what guy would want a brown eyed girl with black hair?
I just want someone to show me how to be happy for once...because I haven't been in a longtime. I long to be wanted.