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26 Never Have Been Loved

I'm 26, and I feel very sorry for myself.

I have never loved. Not the kind of love you feel for a family member, but LOVE. The kind we all hope to find. The kind that sticks with you through all.

Sometimes I think that I will end up alone. Dying without ever knowing Love, makes me think that my life was a waste. All Humans long to love.All humans long to feel wanted, to be needed.

As a teenager, I use to look at the thousands of sunsets over the ocean and I always told myself that someday someone would be wrapping their arms around me during one of these sunsets. I would never have to watch a sunset alone.

A lot of years have gone by, and I've yet to feel arms around me in a tender embrace.

What's wrong with me? Loneliness. I live in a country that I hate, where I feel different and my self esteem goes out the door. I've always hated living here. I always felt different, but not different good, different bad. I don't have blonde hair, blue eyes. I am not skinny. I am me, opposite of all that is wanted by the average white male. (is that racist? I hope not) But what guy would want a brown eyed girl with black hair?

I just want someone to show me how to be happy for once...because I haven't been in a longtime. I long to be wanted.

ivargas ivargas 26-30, F 6 Responses Aug 28, 2009

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Euro men dislike women with dark hair and dark eyes? Maybe that's why I am also single and 26 :(.

Hi my name is sher i'm 23 i'm never been loved <br />
but never had a girlfriend

Looks have so little to do with this. It only does if you let it affect your confidence. I see girls who are fat and ugly with loving boyfriends all the time. Not to toot my own horn but I am not bad looking at all. I don't really dress up or anything but when i was younger and put more effort into my looks all the guys thought i was hot. Not i'd probably just say I'm above average. I have a nice bod, and pretty face from most angles.<br />
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I am 22 and I've never been loved wither. I've been with guys, but never had a boyfriend. With every guy I've been with, I wanted to be in a relationship with, but then it never really went past sex, or else he would dump me for another girl, or go back to his ex, or tell me he "didn't believe in dating." I've had my heart broken a couple of times now so horribly i didn't think I was gonna be able to function ever again. I have so much going for me I think, on paper I am a great catch! It sounds funny, i know. I've traveled, I've experienced many different things, I'm involved with a variety of stuff and I'm social. So what's the deal?<br />
I really relate to your idea of watching a sunset with someone's arm around you. I ache for that as well.<br />
With the three guys I have had "relations" with, we never held hands, looked into each others eyes, or watched a sunset or anything like that. and that's all i wanted in the first place. Sex, I could take or leave. It doesn't do much for me.<br />
It hurts and I sometimes i wish I had never met any of those guys, because it just made me lose faith in love and myself. Everyday I wonder what the hell is wrong with me?<br />
And since we are talking about hair, mine is neither blonde or brown, dull colourless, straight/fine, and i guess my eyes are grey...

Looks have so little to do with this. It only does if you let it affect your confidence. I see girls who are fat and ugly with loving boyfriends all the time. Not to toot my own horn but I am not bad looking at all. I don't really dress up or anything but when i was younger and put more effort into my looks all the guys thought i was hot. Not i'd probably just say I'm above average. I have a nice bod, and pretty face from most angles.<br />
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I am 22 and I've never been loved wither. I've been with guys, but never had a boyfriend. With every guy I've been with, I wanted to be in a relationship with, but then it never really went past sex, or else he would dump me for another girl, or go back to his ex, or tell me he "didn't believe in dating." I've had my heart broken a couple of times now so horribly i didn't think I was gonna be able to function ever again. I have so much going for me I think, on paper I am a great catch! It sounds funny, i know. I've traveled, I've experienced many different things, I'm involved with a variety of stuff and I'm social. So what's the deal?<br />
I really relate to your idea of watching a sunset with someone's arm around you. I ache for that as well.<br />
With the three guys I have had "relations" with, we never held hands, looked into each others eyes, or watched a sunset or anything like that. and that's all i wanted in the first place. Sex, I could take or leave. It doesn't do much for me.<br />
It hurts and I sometimes i wish I had never met any of those guys, because it just made me lose faith in love and myself. Everyday I wonder what the hell is wrong with me?<br />
And since we are talking about hair, mine is neither blonde or brown, dull colourless, straight/fine, and i guess my eyes are grey...

what is problem of being with a black hair , I myself never liked blondes , okay , they are beautiful , but they look small closed minds , I never choose one of them .<br />
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it is not late , never late , I am 23 and never been loved , I am guided by the belif that someday I will find my love.<br />
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Focus to be with friends , to have common things to share with them , to hang out , go to movies , meet new people , to have sense of humor ,an old saying "smile to the life , it smiles back to you".<br />
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at last , I wish you all the best , I see you surrounded with bunch of guys fighting over you.

I wouldn't say it is racist.. i can understand it is just an ex<x>pression of your feelings. I think the problem is that you are keeping to yourself. <br />
Basically that is where I think you need to make some changes. <br />
Me being a guy, should tell you that half the guys in the world today only think of one thing.. when it comes to a girl. <br />
From your description, I understand, that it is not what you are looking for. You are looking for a guy who can see the inner you and not what your physical appearance is. Trust me, one day you will find one.<br />
But for that, you have to make people notice you. For that, you dont need to work too hard. Just do things that make you noticable. Social work, charity - however small, community service, are just a few ways to get yourself noted in the locality. <br />
If you are looking at a little higher range, travel, or excel in your work. <br />
Remember, it is you who needs to be found. For that you have to work hard. <br />
The key is to believe in yourself. I am sure you have heard the saying, "Beauty is in the eye of the beholder". You have to believe that you are capable, that you are beautiful, that you are talented and that you can make a mark. <br />
I am sure, you will soon find those tender arms...