I'm Only A Man

Self pity is uninteresting so I'm going to try to stay away from that. Sometimes I feel like there is a key to getting women to be interested that I can't seem to find. I'm an only child and definitely have an overly nurturing mother so that really doesn't help. I think I can make a woman very happy but I have never had the chance. I'm sensitive, caring, respectful, and I can be very passionate and emotional. Sometimes I feel like there is no justice in this world. That I only struggle because I am a good person and if I was more like any other ******* I would get what I need. I refuse to contribute to the **** of this world, there is already way too much. Don't get me wrong, I have no self esteem. Every woman I meet eventually wants nothing to do with me. What is so bad about me? What makes me so god damn unattractive? It is definitely not the way I look. I do admit I am pretty shy. I find it difficult to approach women. I always over think it and by the time I'm ready my chance has passed. Sometimes I feel like women just want to be manhandled but sorry, I'm not that way. I hope I'm wrong about there being no justice in this world. I hope I have been saving all my love because my perfect woman is out there waiting for me. Every day I don't find her I lose a little more hope and I just get more and more depressed, making it less likely for me to find her tomorrow. How do I get out of this vicious cycle? In general when I meet new people I usually end up sharing the bad things about me first, and saving the good for later. Women don't seem to appreciate that. Honestly, I don't deserve to hate myself. I have a lot of really good qualities but this one bad thing makes me sometimes wish I'd never been born at all.

If anyone reads this and can make a comment or a suggestion I would really appreciate it.

ninjaman444 ninjaman444
18-21, M
1 Response Mar 2, 2010

You seem like a good guy, so I wouldn't worry too much. That stuff about nice guys finishing last, thats bullshit. Now, scaredy-boys finish last (not that I'm calling you that) so next time your out, look around, theres probably a girl checking you out, just ya know gotta let go of the funk or no girls gonna wanna come near ya. Girls at this age are bitchy anyways, believe me, I know. I don't know if this did any good at making you feel better, but I tried. You didn't sound particulary whiny, so I thought this warranted a response.