my husband has cheated with one person, several times since we've been married and at least 3 times a year for the 5 years that we dated before then. he's always found the girls online and i've always wondered how do you find the scum of the earth so many times over? how can anyone approach a person assuming they have no morals and would be willing to come in on their scheme and be discrete and sneaking into someone else's house, bed, car?
my God, what has the world really come to? - so many people with no scruples?
for the last year i do believe him that he has no physically met anyone. he has sent nude photos of himself and requested them from others. he is into online ****, subscribes to black men and several other racy magazines and he has purchased "flicks" that i have to "happen upon" in order to know that "we" own them.
ok - so knowing that, would you think that our relationship has been troubled in the bedroom since we started dating? in a lot of ways i am insatiable, i would honestly like a daily dose. i view sex as an outlet, a stress reliever and if i'm too tired to be in the mood that means there are other areas of my day that you could have chimed in to share the load... we are married... we are a team?., right?
i don't know what to do
before we got back together last year we went to marriage counseling and even the counselor was puzzled when he admitted to cheating but then claimed he was completely satisfied sexually with me. he said the cheating was more about sneaking to do something and the rush that he got.... but if you are that much of a sexual being why do you sleep on the couch 5 out of 7 nights each week? how are you capable of literally looking past my naked body after i get out of the shower, come stand in front of the tv and you say "the game is on".?
please, if you have been on the other end of this please be honest and shed some light.
i do believe that I took these vows and gave God my promise. i have never cheated on anyone that i have ever been with but God help me I am so tempted to look online and do what he has done so easily and so many times. i know for a fact that everything done in the dark comes to light because without searching i have always been told / shown when he was being unfaithful. would it serve him right to happen upon my internet excursions when he's sending out & requesting secret pictures of his own?