Alone In The World.

Im 17 (almost 18) and i have never had a girlfriend. I always thought i would have one in high school. But with this year closing in, the window of oppurtunity is getting smaller and smaller. I know im still "young" but as i look at some other posts and see that some people are in their 30s 40s or even 50s , i think to myself...What if that happens to me? Id do anything to not be alone. By next school year, most of the people, which ive known for many years, will all be dispersed all over the country. Out of 1400 kids ( the amount at my highschool) 1 is my best friend and 4  are good friends... I dont go out much, i dont go to parties, i dont do anything, just stay in my house playing video games.

How will i survive in the world? I want to go back to when life was fun and easy and i never worried...This life so far is not what i want it to be. I don't get why....Why cant i go out more? Why cant I be more social? Why cant i have a girlfriend? Is it because im not attractive? Ive been told im no bad looking and that im funny and sweet. I dont do illegal stuff. I respect everyone. I just dont get it. 

Soon im gonna be left behind while all my friends and peers start their own lives, forced to go through life alone.

"Alone"...I hate that word.
Jak123abc Jak123abc
18-21, M
8 Responses Mar 6, 2012

i don't want to seem cynical,but high school and college will be pretty much your best years.You should make the most out what you have left,I myself,also lost track of time and high school was over,i had 1 good year out of it though :D.Try and be more confident and don't mind people's opinions ,join a gym.And learn how to drink,cause you'll need that :).Much luck.

I could seriously hug you right now ,I think your in a good spot though I just got out of a really bad spot and I would thank my best friend for that its good that you don't do bad stuff I'm like 2 years younger than you and I already have a past.

Yes! Hug! Im cold and demand to be warmed up xP Thanks for reading. This was almost a year ago; i've been getting better. I am focusing less and getting a relationship and more on the things that currently make me happy. I have my whole life ahead of me. There'll be time for some fun later on ;)

well I don't know you but I would be your friend

:O this actually shocked me. You're so funny, you've only messaged me a couple of times and I'm practically in love with you!!:P no but really if I wasn't a lesbian I would find you attractive. You shouldn't worry about going to college without a girlfriend. I am at the same spot in school, next year you will meet so many other great people you don't need to worry.

There something wrong....I cant stop smiling! =D That right there just made my night! Thanks! Yea, there will always be new people in my life. Some will come and go while others will stay. Most don't stay but thats ok! My friends that I have make up for it...and then some!

honestly, being in a relationship at a young age isn't always the smartest thing to do. I learnt from my rough experience aswell. don't feel bad about it. just take your single days for granted. one day, when the time is right, im sure she will be there. :)

:) Thanks, I sure hope so. I just want the one already. I have all this love and emotion in me and no one to openly and honestly share it with. I also have all this free and no one to spend it with. Gah, one day.

Think about the bright'll be more mature than what you were three years ago. and that's always a good thing..more chances of it lasting.

Sure, ill be more mature, but ill also be less experienced. Im hoping as i get older, ill become less caring of others and be more of myself. I know my personality is attractive but my outer

outer appearance isn't everything. and once you find the right girl, she won't care whether or not you're experienced.
don't be disheartened. :)

Thanks. It means alot :)

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17& alone plz i m 21 and still alone and strong

I've never had a boyfriend, and I just turned 18. I guess it's all about finding the right person. I do understand how you feel tho, hope things turn around for us lol

you sound like a really cool dude to me im kinda like you except im a girl and your a guy.Im sorry you feel so bad *hugs*

^_^ Thanks *hugs*.The friends that I do have say i am. Just everyone else hasnt given me a chance to be myself or get to know me like my friends know me.

You shouldn't be so worried about that. I'm in a similar situation, but I'm almost ten years older. I would sacrifice a lot just to come back at least five years back - the time when everything seemed to be recoverable (and I still would be older than You).<br />
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The good thing is that You do realise the problem, so please, use Your time wisely.