Alone In The World.Im 17 (almost 18) and i have never had a girlfriend. I always thought i would have one in high school. But with this year closing in, the window of oppurtunity is getting smaller and smaller. I know im still "young" but as i look at some other posts and see that some people are in their 30s 40s or even 50s , i think to myself...What if that happens to me? Id do anything to not be alone. By next school year, most of the people, which ive known for many years, will all be dispersed all over the country. Out of 1400 kids ( the amount at my highschool) 1 is my best friend and 4 are good friends... I dont go out much, i dont go to parties, i dont do anything, just stay in my house playing video games.
How will i survive in the world? I want to go back to when life was fun and easy and i never worried...This life so far is not what i want it to be. I don't get why....Why cant i go out more? Why cant I be more social? Why cant i have a girlfriend? Is it because im not attractive? Ive been told im no bad looking and that im funny and sweet. I dont do illegal stuff. I respect everyone. I just dont get it.
Soon im gonna be left behind while all my friends and peers start their own lives, forced to go through life alone.
"Alone"...I hate that word.
Jak123abc 18-21, M 9 Responses 6 Mar 6, 2012