20, Never Had A Girl, Never Had Any Real Friends.Through out school I had few friends. The one person I did hang out with had almost nothing in common with me. He was into sports, I was a nerd. Hell! I am still a nerd. It is great.
Because I was the odd one out in my school I was bullied. Just insults, never anything physical, no one ever wanted to get into a fight with me. I am built like a quarterback. Six foot one, a brick wall with legs. A nickname my family gave. The insults people tried to do to me never were effective, I am smart and witty enough to have better come-backs and bat theirs off like nothing.
When it came to relationships their was no one I knew that had anything in common with me. So I never did ask anyone out nor did I care. I was a loner and was happy. Now though I wish I have someone I can talk to be, be myself with. It is hard to find someone into the same things as me. Video-games, Sci-Fi, Zombies, Doctor Who, Computers, Graphics, Technology, Science, Someone who knows my humor. But there is always hope. Their is someone.
I work at a local interested as a cook. There is this new girl who works there. She is the same age as me. Plays video games, understands my humor, is just as prepped for the apocalypse as me; we traded maps our written plans on what to do when the zombies arrive. She is an artist, paints, we share the same love of music, love the same movies, and share a lot of TV shows. She is a musician, plays a lot of different instruments, and has a beautiful voice. She is beautiful too. We may not share everything in common. If I wanted that Id make out with the mirror.
She is my best friend, the only real friend I have ever had. But yet I feel like there should be more between us. I do not think she knows how I feel, and I do not know how she really feels about me. I am afraid to ask her, or to let her know how I feel. I am worried that she will say no, or if the worst will happen and I lose my friend. Just thinking about her, this dilemma I have. It hurts, I get some major depression. Do not worry, this depression is rare and far between. I know how to handle it carefully and safely.
Having no girlfriend sucks. But this not having one, but knowing the perfect one and being afraid to ask. It is worse. The fear of losing your only friend.
God I love this site. It feels so great being able to tell my story. Thank you.
Poloill 18-21 4 Responses 0 Jan 8, 2013