Just Waiting..

I'm only a high schooler so its really not a huge deal that I don't have a girlfriend yet. I could've had one fairly easily had my standards been lower. I've had a few decent girls interested in me and plenty of trashy ones but no one seemed right. I'm muscular and athletic, have great hair, and am a possible valedictorian, so I've got plenty going for me.

I just have so much trouble finding people, especially girls who I get along with at all. I've really considered pursuing something with my female friends but there's some fundamental differences that would just make it impossible.

I've only had two crushes in my life, one little crush that was more of a reaction to puberty, and currently a huge one on my best friend. Unfortunately I don't know if anything will come of it, but I'll save the details for a more appropriate group.

Anyway, I do really worry about being alone. I feel like I'm missing a huge part of myself and a huge part of life by not having a relationship. I'm almost tempted to just ask one of the girls I dismissed but I know it would end badly. I have to do something though. I thought I could bear waiting but I just can't, it gets worse every day.
InTheDirt InTheDirt
18-21, M
Jan 21, 2013