Never Had a Girlfriend Whom I Could Touch
Here's my problem.. I've never had a girlfriend except in long distance relationships. I'm 18 years old, and have never had a girlfriend. The closest girl I would say was my girlfriend was one who lived in Maine. I was with her for around a year and a half. We grew very close, and we shared a lot. She was the closest I've ever been to a girl. I thought I was going to make it happen, we did. We thought we'd meet up someday after high school or college but as time went on we both became skeptical and broke it off. We got back together a couple of other times, but kept breaking up. We got in arguments a lot, things happened, she got jealous, then me.
There is a lot to talk about, but I'll try and keep it short. It eventually got to the point to where I didn't want to be hurt anymore, and I rarely, if ever, talk to her. Anyways... I've had a lot of online relationships, but I don't really consider them as real relationships... I've held a woman before, and have kissed one before, but have never had a girlfriend. I've always wanted a girlfriend whom I could touch and feel, kiss when I want to, be there for her, her for me, and support each other. I've always wanted to experience love at its finest.. But I've never had the courage to ask a girl out, or the confidence. I've been trying to be more outgoing, more myself, and more social, and hopefully soon I'll reach my goal of having a girlfriend and having more success with women..
You know how people have these huge goals about getting really rich, having all the women in the world, and being a great leader? I think that's nice and all, but what I truly want is to be comfortable around women, and to have a girlfriend. That's probably my biggest goal in life right now, and it's always on my mind.