HATE It!!!

This is like, always the worst day of my year, along with new year's eve.  When I was a little girl, my daddy used to go out and buy me teddy bears and candy and he'd call and sing to me (I'm really about to cry) and my mom would make valentine's day cupcakes or cookies and even when she didn't have a car she'd bring them for my class at school.  In elementary school, getting the little valentines and eating candy was always so fun.  Then as soon as I hit middle school it was over.  My dad went downhill after getting laid off from his job of thirteen years, and pretty much stopped having anything to with me.  I remember the first year he didn't call me on v-day.  I was in the seventh grade and he had bought me a cell phone the previous Christmas.  I carried that damn phone around the house all day.  My mom saw me, before I went out with my sister, I told her, "Hold on!  I can't go out without my phone" and my mother just said, "I know who you're waiting on."  But the call never came.   And they never came again after that.  Throughout middle and high school, I never had a boyfriend.  So I'd watch all the girls carrying huge teddy bears and bouquets of flowers.  But I never got anything.  One year, to make myself feel better I went out and bought one of my underprivleged friends a nice outfit and accessories to go with it.  I feel good buying people stuff, most of my money goes to other people.  It's just too depressing.  Now this year my mom and and my sister are both in serious relationships, my little sister even has someone to be with on that day!  My mom's bf lives here, so basically I'm surrounded by sickness.  Kissy kissy.  Oh I'm getting this and that, we're gonna do this and that... UGH UGH UGH!!!  It makes me wanna sleep for the next week.  But instead of focusing on another crappy v-day, I am getting my brothers and sister for the weekend.  My baby brother turns 3 on the 13th, so we're gonna celebrate his birthday on v-day instead.  Then I'll have my baby sister to cuddle up with on that lonely night, so it won't be bad.

urbrandofheroin urbrandofheroin
22-25, F
Feb 12, 2009