My Mistake With Perfection And Loved Ones

I have this little issue where when I grow really fond of someone, whether it's a best friend or a boyfriend or whatever, I tend to see them as perfect.  They become the can't-do-no-wrong kind of people to me, which is bad because then I expect them to be perfect because that's exactly how they are in my eyes and if they make any mistakes, I panic and I guess that's because I don't like to see anybody that I may adore or idolize as not being perfect. 

I often remind myself of a child who still sees his or her parents as perfect and omnipotent only I don't get that with my parents, but with other people.  You would think that whole unrealistic idea of mine goes away the older I get, but I think it only intensifies more and more.  It wasn't so bad when I was younger.  I think its gotten worse. 

But I'm afraid I've never met a perfect person. 

I wish I could say that I AT LEAST met someone or have someone in my life that is CLOSE or NEAR to perfect, but I guess I can't quite say that either.  That's just something I'm going to have to face up to.  I don't have a choice really.

deadmoon deadmoon
22-25, F
Aug 27, 2010