Missing Parent

I have never met my father (save once as a newborn), and until recently, didn't even know his name.
For the first few years of my childhood, I lived as an only child with my mother. I was very content with with my upbringing with a single parent, but was often puzzled at why other children had both parents living with them (or brothers and sisters, for that matter).


My mum told me that she started dating my father three months before she became pregnant at 18 years old. It was a heavily unstable relationship, and from what I've heard, he was an alcoholic, amongst other things. 
They split up a month before my birth.   

My father met me once, when I was still only a few weeks old. After that, there was no contact since then.
My mother also has been in a series of relationships and has been married and divorced twice since them, from which I've gained a man whom I look up to as a father, and three half-siblings.

Recently, I've found my father on Facebook. All I can see is an image, but I feel a bit alienated from the man. It's strange imagining that he is my own family, that I am half of his genetics. Also, I can't help but feel angry at the fact that he walked out on his own daughter, and hasn't taken responsibility, but I can't help but be curious about him.

To this day, I've decided not to make contact with him for now.  
 

DangerRainbow DangerRainbow
18-21, F
3 Responses Aug 9, 2010

I also have never met my father. It is weird to see someone with your face, hair, whatever, but feel absolutely no kindship toward them. Have you tried contacting him on FB? A message or something? You never know the whole story until you try. Lots of guys are too immature to handle kids when they are young, but then when they get older, they realize their mistake. Maybe he wants to meet you, is curious about you. An email can't hurt!

I also have never met my father. It is weird to see someone with your face, hair, whatever, but feel absolutely no kindship toward them. Have you tried contacting him on FB? A message or something? You never know the whole story until you try. Lots of guys are too immature to handle kids when they are young, but then when they get older, they realize their mistake. Maybe he wants to meet you, is curious about you. An email can't hurt!

I also have never met my father. It is weird to see someone with your face, hair, whatever, but feel absolutely no kindship toward them. Have you tried contacting him on FB? A message or something? You never know the whole story until you try. Lots of guys are too immature to handle kids when they are young, but then when they get older, they realize their mistake. Maybe he wants to meet you, is curious about you. An email can't hurt!