Fear...I have dealt with nightmares since I can remember. When I was little the only way to not have them would be to have someone else in the bed. The nightmares became so frequent that I ended up just sleeping with my mother until I was in middle school. When she got remarried I had to sleep on my own again and the nightmares returned. They were not as frequent so I was okay until I got to high school. They were beginning to happen every night and be even more graphic than before. I would imagine that people were in my room and I would wake up from trying to get them out. I went to the doctor and he put me on Trazadone to help. That made sure I did not have any dreams at all. When I got to college I took myself off thinking that I would be ok. I was fine for a couple years but my junior year they came back at full force. They would happen every night and would not go away even after I woke up and went back to bed. The only dreams I would remember were the nightmares and never the few good dreams I had. I wake up either sweating, from yelling or talking, or from the fear that is coursing through me. I have such a horrible sleep pattern that it is starting to affect my school work and I the Trazadone makes me so tired the next day that I don’t know if taking it helps with the drowsiness. I don’t know the last time I have gotten a full night’s sleep without any disturbances or ramifications the next day. All I want is to be able to sleep without the fear of watching my family and friends die around me or having someone in my room trying to kill me myself.
kngrace 18-21 1 Response 0 Mar 22, 2011