Nothing I Can Think Of...The more I think about it, the more I've come to realize that at my age, I should have more to show for myself in the way of what I might be good at or what I might be interested in. You would think that by 32, most people would be good at SOMETHING, or be content with whatever interest or hobby that they may have picked up in the year prior. Not so much for me.
I can't write prose OR poetry, I'm not artistic in ANY capacity (and even have ridiculously bad handwriting to boot), cannot play any musical instrument, have zero athletic ability which might not be so bad if I made up for it in the "brains" department, but alas, nothing going on there either. I also have none of the "intangible" skills like socializing or making friends which is getting even harder to cope with the older I get. Nothing interests me in any capacity because nothing is actually interesting to me, but also because that no matter what I would choose to try, I would never be good at it anyway, no matter how much I worked at it (I have good reasons to know why this is true). It's really hard to know this about yourself, especially when no matter whom else you meet or talk to always has invariably something that they can talk about, like what kind of sport they like to play or what kind of instrument they can perform with. I guess that ties in directly to my inability to connect with people. What is the point of trying to talk to people when there is nothing interesting to say about yourself to keep the conversation going?
Tuva 31-35, M 7 Responses 3 Mar 13, 2011