To say that I don't have any friends in the broad sense of the term would certainly be inaccurate.  There are several people out there that consider me (in some way, shape, or form) to be their "friend."  On the other hand---a real close friend is something I have not enjoyed for quite some time.  It is not that I never had one.  I have had some in the past, but due to relocations or other circumstances we have lost touch with each other.  In the past, I have been able to make new friends--close friends---in the new setting while cherishing the memory of those close relationships of the past.  For the past 6 years or so, this has not happened.  "Friendships" are superficial----nothing more than glorified acquaintances.  There is no one I can really talk to and spill my guts to, so to speak.  There is no one that I "hang out" with on a regular basis or even talk to on the phone or email.

LONELY is a the word I used in my user name because it describes how I feel without those close friendships that we all need in life.

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2 Responses Jul 21, 2010

I have felt the same way for so long and if you read my posts, even I can see why it would be sometimes hard to find me to be considered a close friend to anyone, but I too have longed for closer relationships yet I've gone so long with nothing that I just kept to myself and it just seems to hard to try to make friends with people that aren't back stabbers in the end; which keeps me from saying anything to a lot of people, I know that if I tell someone anything especially my worst secrets that inevitably gives them collateral against me and I shut my mouth to people. But where that lacks I have found this site where anonymity is the essence of the site and I feel safe saying what I have to say to people and hoping I might find those that seem to want to be my friend that way instead.

sorry for that. but i feel the same