Only Human

I am in the most wonderful relationship with my wife(yes I am lesbian) and my 2 beautiful sons. My family disowned me when I came out 2 years ago. I do not have any friends, I have coworkers that I chit-chat with but no meaningful relationships outside of work. I do not live where I grew up so it is hard to make friends at my age. I struggle financially and cannot afford to go out a lot like many girls my age and it is very hard for me to find a babysitter. I would rather do family oriented things and it just seems like i can't meet anyone on that level. My wife does not understand why I get so lonely and down. Yes I am happy with her but she works nights and I just sit here alone. It is hard not to have someone to talk to and spend time with, even just doing little things like taking the kids to the park or going to the mall. I get so down and lonely and I can't imagine living the next 20 years of my life with no family and friends. It is only human to want companionship. Having support is a basic need in order to have a happy sustained life and I just can't seem to meet that need. It gets really hard going through life like this
westoftherainbow westoftherainbow
26-30, F
2 Responses Dec 3, 2012

I am in the same boat. I get to talk to my family but they are a little standoffish about me being with my fiance. They don't come for holidays either, they don't want to be around me since I am with her. It's an odd place to be. I also feel odd telling other people I meet about being with a woman because I'm afraid they won't want to be my friend anymore. I have like one friend and she doesn't know I'm gay. I'm thinking of telling her one day, but I'm afraid she won't be my friend anymore because she's really religious. All the rest of the people I hang around with I rarely see or just contact them through text or online. It is very lonely, so I can relate to you. I just came out a little over a year ago as well.

I understand how u feel for the simple fact l dont have family or friends. Im raising my son with no help but sometimes i need company. I get so alone that i cry and sometimes talk to myself.