My Father Used To Be In My Life

My Story is different from some others. I actually know my father & where he lives cause we & other relatives on both sides of the family live in different parts of the same town. He wasn't in my life that much but it was enough to satisfy me & I loved him (and still do) for it. My parents got divorced when I was 3 years old so I never had any problems with them not being together because they were never together to begin with in my life. My father used to send me Christmas cards, come to class at school & give me roses (b/c they're my fav flower) & chocolate & a teddy bear every Valentine's Day, used to take me to his house & my grandma & aunt & cousin's (on his side of the family) houses & I even used to spend the night at their houses & it was like this from when I was at least 5 years old to when I was at least 10 or 11 years old. Then when I turned 12-13 & started 6th grade all of that just stopped. No more Christmas cards, no more Valentine's gifts, no more visits to his side of the family or spending the night at their houses, no more calling me on the phone, nothing. He just stopped like you would break up with a friend that you didn't want to be friends with anymore. It hurt me alot & still does a little bit to know he was that invovled in my life up until then & then just stopped & just chose not to be that way anymore. I don't cry about it because I think it was my fault, I know I didn't do anything wrong, I cry b/c of the way he took himself out of my life that's what makes me sad & angry & makes me wanna cry! I saw him again when I was 17, he took me to get my first pair of prescription eye glasses & he got some new glasses too & he even took me out to eat but afterwards it went back to me not seeing or hearing from him again. The last time I heard from him & saw him was at my high school graduation when I was 18, I'm 23 now & I haven't heard from or seen him since my high school graduation, that's like 5 or 6 years. Good riddance if ask me. It's ok, I'm ok. My life is great right now & I have finally come to terms with & accepted it now. I don't need him in my life now besides in my opinion with me being 23 now it's too late for him to try to get involved now anyway. He had his chance when I was in school & he didn't take/use it now I'm a different person & I don't want him in my life anymore, I'm done with him. I mean my big brother (who was raised by our grandparents on our mother's side of the family) used to play cards with our dad & other relatives on that side of the family & town every friday night so if our dad really wanted to talk to me he could've asked my brother for me & my mom's home phone number but he didn't. My brother doesn't hang out with or go to our dad's house anymore because he's recently fallen in love & started having kids & changing his life around & he doesn't want them to be around that side of the family b/c they have alot of drama, they curse, they drink, they smoke & it's just not a good environment for his family so he just stopped hangin' with that side of the family. My mother has always been a great open minded mother to me, raising me by herself & has always been my best friend. So if you asked me if I had a favorite parent I would say yes my mom.