I Have No Friends and Need Some Friends
That is how I feel...like I'm standing in a room full of people and no one sees me. Or walking at the mall and people bump into you like you are not even there.
You know, if I was truly invisible I could be the richest man in the world, but somehow I do not think that is the case. So what it is then?? Are people just so wrapped up in their own lives they no longer care about others? Are people just oblivious to the fact that there are other people in this world? What ever happened to brotherly love (or even like)? What happened to love thy neighbor?? Or even just "SEE" thy neighbor???
I would love to just be able to talk to someone within my own species...someone within my age group who is would like to have and be a true friend. Not someone who contacts you when it is convenient for them (maybe once every couple of months). Someone who actually enjoys your company.
It never used to be this way. When I was younger (many, many moons ago), I used to have a life. I had friends who cared. I was actually visible to other people. Then I started working from home. Having already been alone, working from home made matters worse. The isolation and lack of humn contact wears you down after a while. Then the isolation gets to the point where what others take for granted become more and more difficult...just walking out the door is a major ordeal.
I am one who is normally not a negative person and tries to look at the positive side of everything, but that gets more difficult to do as the isolation overwhelms you. I have been in contact with some people who are going through somewhat the same experience; however, they seem to be so negative about everything and I am trying to stay positive. It is very difficult to be around negativity for any length of time without it starting to take over and wipe out the positive thoughts.
In the past few months I have started to get my passion back that I lost several years ago. I actually feel like doing things and have this almost overwhelming urge to go out. So I may go to my usual "comfort zones" but still have this feeling of being invisible. My ideal right now would be to have a friend who can SEE me and would like to do and go places. Someone who can carry on a decent conversation that doesn't start with "Life sucks because...".
I know I sound like I'm babbling, but it is difficult when there are 1000 thoughts going through your head to put in writing something that sounds somewhat sensible. It's like what is "allowed" out of my head is so fragmented that to put it all together looks like several short stories that have nothing to do with each other.
I really appreicate the opportunity to write down my thoughts as "fragmented" as they may seem. But even in their fragmented form, they seem to make perfect sense to me.
Thanks again,
John
You know, if I was truly invisible I could be the richest man in the world, but somehow I do not think that is the case. So what it is then?? Are people just so wrapped up in their own lives they no longer care about others? Are people just oblivious to the fact that there are other people in this world? What ever happened to brotherly love (or even like)? What happened to love thy neighbor?? Or even just "SEE" thy neighbor???
I would love to just be able to talk to someone within my own species...someone within my age group who is would like to have and be a true friend. Not someone who contacts you when it is convenient for them (maybe once every couple of months). Someone who actually enjoys your company.
It never used to be this way. When I was younger (many, many moons ago), I used to have a life. I had friends who cared. I was actually visible to other people. Then I started working from home. Having already been alone, working from home made matters worse. The isolation and lack of humn contact wears you down after a while. Then the isolation gets to the point where what others take for granted become more and more difficult...just walking out the door is a major ordeal.
I am one who is normally not a negative person and tries to look at the positive side of everything, but that gets more difficult to do as the isolation overwhelms you. I have been in contact with some people who are going through somewhat the same experience; however, they seem to be so negative about everything and I am trying to stay positive. It is very difficult to be around negativity for any length of time without it starting to take over and wipe out the positive thoughts.
In the past few months I have started to get my passion back that I lost several years ago. I actually feel like doing things and have this almost overwhelming urge to go out. So I may go to my usual "comfort zones" but still have this feeling of being invisible. My ideal right now would be to have a friend who can SEE me and would like to do and go places. Someone who can carry on a decent conversation that doesn't start with "Life sucks because...".
I know I sound like I'm babbling, but it is difficult when there are 1000 thoughts going through your head to put in writing something that sounds somewhat sensible. It's like what is "allowed" out of my head is so fragmented that to put it all together looks like several short stories that have nothing to do with each other.
I really appreicate the opportunity to write down my thoughts as "fragmented" as they may seem. But even in their fragmented form, they seem to make perfect sense to me.
Thanks again,
John
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jlitzenb
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