It Can't Be Me
I am a very friendly person. Although I suffer from social anxiety I still make an effort to make friends because once I do and the person I am talking to seems friendly, it puts my anxiety at ease. I try to hide the fact I have social anxiety and most people dont know i have it because of how sociable I am . So normally it is fairly easy for me to make friends, but not here. The people seem more interested in themselves. If I try to start a conversation or even try to exchange a greeting I am returned with a scowl, a constipated look or even a grunt....maybe cuz they really are constipated.
Either way I have been friendless for 8 years. I put up with it because when my husband is around I feel he is the only friend I really need. It still angers me that it is so difficult to make friends out west here. I was born and raised in the mid west and carry strong midwestern values so I am noticing how much it clashes with some out here. Notice I said some. I know nice friendly people are hiding somewhere out here I just dont know where.