Being A People Person, It's Hard To Be Lonely.

I have a husband of 32 years and he & I have a good time together. We use to go to clubs and dance no matter how big we were. I sing Karaoke so we use to have a very fun life. I have been a stay at home mom and wife for 32 years and have gained and lost weight several times. I have been on every diet u could guess. I have lost 70-85 lbs, and gained that back and more (each time) I never could do it on my own. We always spent lots of money (when we had it) to a diet center and when I ran out of the contract, I had lost a lot of weight, but was tired of the plan. I always thought I could keep it off...........
I am 260 lbs now. A in control diabetic (so far) high blood pressure ( med. helps right now) and my Mother's family all have heart decease. My doctor says," Emily, u r a heart attack waiting to happen"  And I know this is true, but it dozen't help me to loose weight. I get so mad to think I would have to give up most things I love and exercise every day. I hate both those things. I know how to do it, heck I'm a professional dieter! When I found out I was a diabetic, I cried with joy....My sick thinking was, Now maybe I will have a reason to loose the weight! I lost 40 lbs, and then quit again. I haven't gained that back, but I haven't lost anymore in almost 3 years.
I use to volunteer a lot when my knee's and back did't hurt me so much. Now that I'm getting older, I just can't do much as far as standing too long or sitting too long. I would love o go to work, but I also don't have a resume, because I haven't worked outside the home in years. I miss being around people. I have neighbors, but my neighborhood, as so many other's, just don't have much to do with each other. I will wave as they pass by, (when I'm outside) they will wave back, but that's as far as it gets. That's such ashamed. I have talked to a few about a block party, but no one is interested. Right now it's so HOT, no one is outside I know what some of u will say. "Find a support group in your town" I have tried...I have gotten so use to staying home. I am much lazier than I have ever been. I do exercise almost everyday for 30min. to an hour.I have a Wii with exercise programs, and I have a home gym. The last 2-3 days, I haven't done anything. I take several meds that make me sleepy all day. And I have to take a sleeping med. to sleep at night. I also have sever sleep apnea. I have to wear a mask covering my mouth with nose prongs. Al tho it helps me breath better when I sleep, it did't change my life like everyone told know I would feel more awake during the day if I could leave off the sleep meds, but I just don't know if I could sleep with this mask if I did't take them. I do plan on trying that soon. Before the mask, I would be awake for 2-3 days and nights, so it has helped in that way. I am thankful for that. I think the reason I joined this web sight is to have friends even if they are on line only. I need to have someone to talk to. I know it's not good for my health to be alone all day, everyday. I do have to 4 legged babies. They just can't talk to me. I have a good since of humor and I love people. So this is my first step to making some friends. Thanks for reading....Emily
emilyjoan emilyjoan
51-55, F
4 Responses Aug 12, 2010

Ty Dorcas...I too want to know u better. I will be back on as soon as I get back...Hugs, Emily

Argh, wrote a reply and then had to log in again, and the system lost it... that's very poor programming! I just wanted to say that I am glad you are getting to go somewhere outside the house for a couple of weeks, even if the internet connection is poor. I hope it all goes well, and I am looking forward to getting to know you. best wishes Dorcas

yes indeed, thats what I am here for. Support. I have been feeling so self defeated for way too long. I have a husband that don't like crowds and loves to just be home when not at work with me and the dogs. I need social interaction! I just don't like going to clubs, ect. by myself to find it. I don't go to church as I use to. I am going to my daughter's for 2 weeks to help out with my grand baby as the sitter quit. The internet is so slow there, I don't get on much. I will try though and send u a message. I am excited to have a online friend to maybe challege each other. I will be there for u in whatever u feel u need for support. I'm a good listner too. Sometimes we just need someone vent. So ty and I will talk to u later....Em

Reading what you had written I felt quite irritated, because you seem to be saying that you want to lose weight, but you don't want to have to do anything about it yourself, and you want friends, but you don't want to have to go out and find them. Then I realised that there isn't a huge difference between me and you. I have been working online for the past 6 years, and have put on a lot of weight. I know that I must go walking and eat less in order to lose weight, but I find it very hard to do. <br />
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I'm thinking that maybe you and I could encourage each other, and help each other do what needs to be done? I weight around the same amount as you do, and I don't have diabetes but I do have high blood pressre, and know I need to lose weight and be more active.<br />
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Somehow, it is always easier to see what it wrong in someone else's life, it's a lot harder to face up to what is wrong in your own. I can see that I need to stop making excuses and do more exercise. In fact I read recently, it is better to do four or five short bursts of exercise than one big on in a day. So... I am going to try to do more exercise, and I will think carefully about what I eat and about you?