I Haven't Had Any Real Friends Since I Was 10 Years OldThe saddest thing about my story is that I have no clue what it feels like to have a real friend in my life. I had associates when I was in elementary school. When I was 8-10 years old, I lived in Iowa with my parents where I had a best friend, and several other friends my age who always came over our house to hang out and have fun.
My best friend lived right down the street and practically lived at my house, even on school nights. I know both of us were very young then, but we were real close and thought that we would always be close as sisters. But then when I turned 10 years old, my parents sent me down to Arkansas to visit my grandma and other relatives, and while I was visiting for the summer, my parents decided to sell almost everything we had and come down to Arkansas where I was.
From that point on, I never seen any of my friends again, and we grew further apart and I believe my best friend's phone number was changed sometimes after that. I found it very hard for me to make friends in Arkansas like I did in Iowa. Nobody tried to be my friend, or just didn't care at all. As soon as I hit high school, I noticed I was very shy and anti-social from everyone at school. I believe that's the reason why I was talked about almost everyday, and picked on in nearly all my classes by mostly girls, and some boys who hung out with the girls.
When I was in the 7th and 8th grade, I met a family who lived down the street from us. For about 2 years I was friends with 3 sisters in that family and seemed to be getting along pretty good with them and catching the bus together almost every school day. Then one day they all stopped talking to me completely and I never knew why. From that point on, I was still getting bullied with no friends to my name. I was severely depressed and couldn't focused and concentrate on my school work or anything else. After I made tons more "D's" and "F's" in school, I dropped out.
I am now almost 30 years old and still sitting up here with ZERO friends. I am a very shy person, but not around people I know. I just thank God that there is a God in Heaven who loves all. So even if I never have any friends, I know I have God, and His Son Jesus Christ, so that I'm not Truly alone.
reeda 26-30, F 100 Responses 15 Oct 20, 2010