Grumble, Grumble.

I use to be the one everyone called before they called others.I always could make a party happen from 2 popsicle sticks, and a rubber band.I dont know what happened , but people just drift apart and Im the only one who hasnt drifted along.I think I am at my most worthless right now, and it causes me to think intently at odd times, like driving down the freeway.not good.I know that life moves on, but why do we stop having fun?I treid my whole life to stay energetic and spontaneous.but now with the realization that I have not a friend, Im loosing my lust for life.I really would not care if I got mugged, at least I was someones choice for that.

I wrecked while riding last week, and hurt myself pretty good.and when I got up,limped to my car,and just sat thinking that for some reason I had it coming.did not say a word to anyone.just went on with my fake smile,although not much of one.any time something bad happens I just take it .If I had any concern right now, I would go to the hospital, but why, I just dont care anymore!!!!!
mman34 mman34
31-35, M
May 4, 2012