No Friends

i havent had a real friend since grade school. i think i was in grade five. but that friendship only lasted for a few months because i had to change school. after that i lost all my contact with her. in my new school i felt a bit out of place. lonely, i have no friend since then. always alone, ignored. i m too shy to start a conversation and when it comes to starting it my mind goes blank. nothing comes into my mind. and people act as if i m not there. i feel hurt. jealous of people who have friends.....