I feel stuck and don’t know what to do to get out of the hole I dug for myself. I have moments when I get confidence and have a list of goals but the fear comes over me and I ignore my goals. I am a shy person, but I think it’s mainly due to all the friendships I have lost in the past and lost the confidence. I have a boyfriend who is very popular, and has many many friends who call him up to hang out all the time. Then there is me. I have no friends and join whatever activity he and his friends are up too. I have meet people through him but never anyone that was my age or wanted a friendship with me. I have lost confidence in myself and feel that I am a boring person or something is wrong with me because I don’t have anyone to enjoy my life with. me and my boyfriend have been distance lately and I’m sure it’s because I’m so clingy to him because I have no life outside of our relationship.
My whole life I have lost best friends because they have moved or because someone has hurt me deeply or has constantly lied to me until I couldn’t take it anymore. I feel like an am a caring, loyal person. People have said they like me and think I’m fun but yet no one actually wants to go further than that. I am going to join a club to get myself out there which really scares me. I am scared of being alone and being rejected. I lost confidence in myself and this whole summer I have been feeling sorry for myself. But I hope joining this club will help me and motivate myself to try again. I don’t like thinking that I am a loser and that my life sucks because I don’t have anyone to share my interests with. I’m just depressed and don’t have people to talk about how I truly feel. I just feel lost, and sad that my life is so meaningless.
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3 Responses Aug 12, 2012

maybe focus on one goal per week, or month, or day... which seems to be what you are doing with your goal of joining a club? so it sounds like you are on the right track, and just need emotional support to follow through.<br />
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does your boyfriend have interests, or just friends/acquaintances to do random stuff with? if he/they are into random stuff, then there is likely to be some overlap of interests between you and his acquaintances, to open the door to friendships.

Thank you! I hope your situation gets better too. Its tough feeling like this. But at least you have new baby on the way and can enjoy the new experiences that will bring. Keep your head up....things always least this is what I like to tell myself to prevent getting depressed about my situation too much.

I know exactly how you feel. I'm going through almost the exact same experience. I'm new here today I just joined hoping to gain some sense of relief. I know pain and loneliness all to well I just wanna know and share happiness. If you should need to talk you can message me. :)