AloneI feel stuck and don’t know what to do to get out of the hole I dug for myself. I have moments when I get confidence and have a list of goals but the fear comes over me and I ignore my goals. I am a shy person, but I think it’s mainly due to all the friendships I have lost in the past and lost the confidence. I have a boyfriend who is very popular, and has many many friends who call him up to hang out all the time. Then there is me. I have no friends and join whatever activity he and his friends are up too. I have meet people through him but never anyone that was my age or wanted a friendship with me. I have lost confidence in myself and feel that I am a boring person or something is wrong with me because I don’t have anyone to enjoy my life with. me and my boyfriend have been distance lately and I’m sure it’s because I’m so clingy to him because I have no life outside of our relationship.
My whole life I have lost best friends because they have moved or because someone has hurt me deeply or has constantly lied to me until I couldn’t take it anymore. I feel like an am a caring, loyal person. People have said they like me and think I’m fun but yet no one actually wants to go further than that. I am going to join a club to get myself out there which really scares me. I am scared of being alone and being rejected. I lost confidence in myself and this whole summer I have been feeling sorry for myself. But I hope joining this club will help me and motivate myself to try again. I don’t like thinking that I am a loser and that my life sucks because I don’t have anyone to share my interests with. I’m just depressed and don’t have people to talk about how I truly feel. I just feel lost, and sad that my life is so meaningless.
hope1216 26-30 3 Responses 0 Aug 12, 2012