Everytime

Everytime I try making friends it just doesn't work. On that one percent that it does work I'm happy for a small period of time. It'll be months later that they'll betray me. How do I make friends? How do I make friends that I know will stay? I literally have no friends. No one to talk to. If I killed myself...no one would notice. Maybe my family, but not the school. Not anyone. They would smile. They would shrug. But none would cry for me.