When I was younger, I talked to people without hesitation. Yet I didn't invited to go hang out anywhere. In my early twenties, I became friends with a girl due to sports and we hung out, but because she had some personal demons to work out on (we're friends again at the moment). I became friends with another by the way of our husbands being friends. I actually thought I had a friend. Then I started to notice that she only bothered with me when she needed something or what to do something she planned, but if I invited her to do something with me, there was always an excuse. Needless to say, we aren't friends anymore. I don't even bother anymore. Its easier for me to socialize in cyberspace because if you and a person doesn't talk anymore, it doesn't hurt. Now I've actually made real friends with people on the net that I talk to on a day to day basis. But that feeling of being in person, having a sip of coffee can't be replaced. Besides my husband, I can't say that I had a real friend since I was 8 and I'm serious.
I don't know what I'm doing wrong. I'm the same as I am on the net, I express my views, no pushover, and I don't sugar coat anything, yet I'm silly at times. All I want is a friend, even if its just one.
thesilentchef thesilentchef
31-35, F
Jan 20, 2013