College Has Been Rough In the Friend Department

I really shouldn't be counting down the days until I am done with my first year of college. But I am. I'm not used to not having any friends. At college, I really have none. I have acquaintances, but no real friends here. I hung around a girl from high school for awhile, but I soon realized she was not the type of person I wanted to be associated with. I have a great group of friends back home and I miss them so much. I can't wait to be around them again.

I hate spending the nights alone in my dorm doing nothing. It's currently a Saturday night and I'm sitting in my dorm doing nothing. Thankfully, during the week I can occupy myself because I'm in a pretty tough major and I always have work to do. That makes the days go by faster.

Sitting in on the weekends has become the norm this semester. Last semester was actually fun. This semester has been rough. I realized I'm at a school I don't like. I'm transferring and I guess I've been using that as an excuse to not make any friends here. My acquaintances are all guys, and I'm a girl. It's kind of annoying because I just want someone I can talk to! I don't have a problem being alone, but sometimes I worry that others notice. I'm a shy person by nature, but once you get to know me, I'm totally different. I think people get this perception that I'm mean, but really, I'm not. I'm shy. It annoys me. I really have no clue what to talk to people about sometimes. I'm nervous I'm going to be this way next year at my new school. I'm going to really try and make an effort, but I'm very nervous the same thing will happen.

I have only told my good friend that I really don't have any friends at college. My family knows I really don't have a lot of people to hang around with here, but I often tell them I hangout with people when I really don't. I'm ashamed to tell my group of friends from high school that I don't have any friends here.

 

I just miss having people to rely on. I hate being alone sometimes. I can't wait to go home. I'm mad that I spent my first year of college being like this. What a waste.

 

sims22 sims22
18-21
3 Responses Mar 21, 2009

Hey this is exactly what I'm going through right now....I miss all my high school friends so much and I know that constantly wishing for the past is a pathetic way to live. I'm really introverted and I've discovered through experience that its really hopeless for me to try to be outgoing since I just come off kind of fake. Did things ever get better for you?

wow when I started reading this I wondered if I had wrote it! The only part that doesn't fit in that well with me is transferring (because I'm at a good school for my major and its the best for price and close to home) and that you have a great group of friends at home- I have friends at home but they haven't really kept in touch with me so I don't even feel like I can call them friends. I wish you better luck at your new school

hey ever wanna talk give me a message or summin