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I Have No Idea What the Hell I Am Doing

Crushed

By: ShakespeareSonnet116
Written on December 7th, 2012
Here I am staring at the screen. I know what needs to come out but I can't find my train of thought. It's gone & left me, stranded. Every word arrived in my mind all at once. Each one clambering over the next to get out, so that now it's just a mass of nonsense...





The silence brings panic because the thought that you might never look my way again is terrifying.

When I think of you I get so completely overwhelmed by emotion. Big fat tears that feel as though they've risen up from my very core billow from my eyes as I fight for breath... Every time.

You say you just need a little space. I can understand that. I can respect it. But I feel like I'm collapsing under the weight of it too.

I am sorry, truly. I never meant to hurt you.
By: ShakespeareSonnet116
Age: 31-35 , Female
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26 responses
  • Kathryn1985
    Kathryn1985

    Hmmm, a situation and occurrence that perhaps never should have happened?

    Dec 8, 2012
    2 likes
  • DancingFox
    DancingFox

    Don't let it crush you, Sonnet. :(

    Dec 7, 2012
    2 likes
  • RKHunter
    RKHunter

    in my boat paddling as quickly as I can ... Hugs on the way beautiful lady.

    Dec 7, 2012
    2 likes
  • laynemeyer
    laynemeyer

    You know I will always be there if you need me.

    Dec 7, 2012
    1 like
  • Experienced321
    Experienced321

    .we're pullin for ya...just like you do for us...

    Dec 7, 2012
    2 likes
  • Oso41412
    Oso41412

    Feeling the same way about someone right now..

    Dec 7, 2012
    1 like
  • 2011A
    2011A

    Ahhhhhhhhhhhh....Ms Sonnet.....You are so eloquent. Surely he knows this was a big misunderstanding...He would never break your heart! Give him a bit of space...Cause he needs it and you understand this....He is coming back. Call in the people who help after train disasters-when they derail. Clear away the debris. Make way for the next trains to come by...Pick up each word and start rebuilding. I have faith in you. kissesssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss......Hugsssssssssssssssssssssss....Go, girl!

    Dec 7, 2012
    1 like
  • Ferric67
    Ferric67

    Hey Sonnet, I know this feeling all too well...
    It's said that time heals these sort of wounds...
    Not really, you may intermittently forget about the individual...but the funny thing is we choose to keep them within our memories...and that includes our feelings for them as well!
    It would be easier to possess a reboot button.

    But it is these sort of experiences that influences the poets within us
    :-)
    Feel Better Sweetie

    Dec 7, 2012
    3 likes
  • accomplice
    accomplice

    The words may evade you there, but here they come fluidly, powerfully emotive.

    Dec 7, 2012
    2 likes
  • mikahononeel
    mikahononeel

    OMG, that was inspiring!
    Like this post so much.

    Dec 7, 2012
    2 likes
  • Punk1n
    Punk1n

    awwwwww.....(((((((holds you and hugs you and loves you and cries with you and just. sucks.with.you.))))))))

    Dec 7, 2012
    2 likes
  • StartingOver2012
    StartingOver2012

    Hugs

    Dec 7, 2012
    3 likes