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I Have No Idea What To Do With My Life Because...

Everything I would like to do is not "real", as in the sense that it all really just does not happen in this world. Not saying that it is totally fantasy based, those things all could happen, all are very possible but they just don't happen here, this world is set up in a pathetic little slave factory forced society. So much so that I find it rare to find anyone who has not lost the part of the imagination that can truly touch the outside, the real outside, and come back to see how small the inside always was. There is nothing here for me. I pretty much hate or am very bored with that which most people seem to lust after or seek and enjoy. The only thing I even know how to do is "art" stuff, but I don't really take any joy from it, it just feels like very unrewarding work, I continue doing it mostly because of that deep thing down inside me that started me doing it in the first place, that I assume starts everyone who does it in the first place, I have little choice, obey it or go stark raving mad. (If you have one of whatever you want to call it, you probably know what I mean). So not really given the choice to seek things I truly would desire, since in this current world there are no choices along those particular lines, and the only thing I can do in this world is looked over, rejected, uncontrolled, unrewarding, and takes more money then it makes. I'm pretty much clueless on what I am suppose to do with this life.

Xuul Xuul 31-35 20 Responses Dec 28, 2009

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This world is insane true but you always have a choice. I myself am pretty clueless as well. But i try to keep peace of mind. I agree with you about the slave factory thing. To think that it is not considered respectful to follow orders and slave your life away. Still life is what you make it. if you do not like the society you live in, either find a new one that you do like or create your own. It takes work but it can happen.

Ticking away the moments that make up a dull day<br />
You fritter and waste the hours in an offhand way.<br />
Kicking around on a piece of ground in your home town<br />
Waiting for someone or something to show you the way.<br />
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Tired of lying in the sunshine staying home to watch the rain.<br />
You are young and life is long and there is time to kill today.<br />
And then one day you find ten years have got behind you.<br />
No one told you when to run, you missed the starting gun.<br />
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So you run and you run to catch up with the sun but it's sinking<br />
Racing around to come up behind you again.<br />
The sun is the same in a relative way but you're older,<br />
Shorter of breath and one day closer to death.<br />
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Every year is getting shorter never seem to find the time.<br />
Plans that either come to naught or half a page of scribbled lines<br />
Hanging on in quiet desperation is the English way<br />
The time is gone, the song is over,<br />
Thought I'd something more to say.

Ive never known what to do in life either. You gotta be able to get on good with other people for a starter. Then to go thru the drama of finding the anything that seems right is not easey to do. Ive never nown what i wanted to do. I suppose thats why i relate so much to the pink floyd song called time.

Find your passion and do that. I want to help people sleep problems (I have lots of sleep probs) and so since I hate the thought if others not sleeping well, it's what I am going to do with my life. Do something ( and there are LOTS of things to do) that satisfy your heart of hearts. Even if that's singing naked at the top of your lungs in your living room, if it is your passion, or makes you feel happy or complete, do it. Best wishes. Blessed be! :-)

i to feel something answer is just do the heart and spare some time to do work from the real world which people say by this you will fulfill your basic needs plus your life meaning can be done,buddy u already have a life meaning just use it in a different way around to fulfill your heart success will be yours

what would you do if the world was made up fully of your imagination?

I consider suicide a lot. Mostly tonight though. Is that bad?

I feel the same thanks for writing that it helped me your really intelligent and i'll pray for u. its really hard the way art has so much meaning in school and then to me seemed really empty when i started a degree in it. My high school had a real creative push in the art area and i went back to the elaberate art show after this year liscened to its positive pep talks which once inspired me and it just seemed like one big, fake massive lie I'lld fallen for. I'm thinking of divorcing myself from art altogether and the fact i wont feel much different scares me. It's just a really difficult place when u find yourself not knowing what you want to be. Art is no less important then anything else and its always something you can go back to. im really glad u wrote that whoever u are, i hope we all find the right paths and get really motivated and inspired. my psychologist is making me write a creative piece ''why do i need to know'' : /

I completely understand how all of you feel and I'm in the same boat. I can't take being fake and doing the rat race thing. I want to do something meaningful and something I would love to do everyday but yet I don't know what that would be.


I had no idea there were others who felt the same as me! This whole post looks like someone snatched from the inner cavities of my curly hair covered cranium! I have no idea what to do, but all the creativity has been snatched from our masses by the false ideal that one's importance in this world is linked to their monetary assets.

Wow, I swear you took every word from my head and wrote it out right there. Thank you

I need to ask the same question....what do you want to do? Look at yourself in a large mirror as you answer that you see passion for your thoughts and desires...are you sincere and willing to work for what you want?....Do you need more education? Do you need to move? What will make it happen for you???

I feel the same way and I don't know what to do.. I don't know what to do next........ don't know how to deal with when everything you wanted to happen in your head..and everything you wanted..and when you dont get that or that doesn't happen.. then what do you do.??

You are searching for answers and meanings. Difficult in this world - especially for someone who thinks about everything so deeply. I went through this in my early to mid-twenties. Everything seemed so pointless. I considered myself an artist, but still had to pay the bills. Even then I wondered why to bother? Why create? I studied art, music, literature, philosophy, science, anthropology... Couldn't stop until I realized that I was searching for some sort of guidance; a mentor or a teacher of some sorts. I found a lot of answers for questions I had by finding similarities in creation myths, etc and forming my own ideas based on spiritual and scientific leaders. <br />
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So much of what I had found fascinated me beyond anything I could imagine. Instead of judging others for the behavior, I began to observe and recognize similarities with various animal groups, and similarities within each group of humans. It led to me research and study evolution and astronomy. This search for answers and knowledge has taken me well into my 30s. Throughout time and all of my research, I have come to the conclusion that until I have at least a vague idea of what my life is about, it wouldn't be right to give up on it. I realized this after much contemplation. <br />
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Not that this is an answer to anything in particular as much as your words resonated with me and I remember well how that feels. I'll share one of my conclusions with you: Life isn't about our daily tasks, or what we do for a living, or what we do to get by. It's about how we are in our daily lives; how we interact with, and how we treat the life around us. Life will exist whether or not we're here to witness it. It's kind of amazing to witness something that grand. (Even if not everyone is awake and alive like you are.)

You kind or remind me of that song by queen is this the real life or is this just fantasy.Here is what i try to do humor, it goes a long way then talking to good friends, then i have goals i work towards and fine someone u can love it will change your world i wish you the best.

Ditto - I work with children and do my art on the side and its hard to be negative around children because they make you forget yourself and let you be yourself at the same time. I think you are having a dark night of the soul - most people take antidepressants at this stage but more enlightened people go through the darkness with the faith that there is light at the end of the tunnel - This experience would be described as loosing attachment to the desire nature in eastern religions or the dark night of the soul as described by St John of the Cross in Western Religions - I think the Psychologist Jung writes about it. You could try working to help others in some way, or working with animals may help to keep you positive alongside your artistic work.

Hey man, we gotta pay the bills somehow, and then do our artsy thing on the periphery. That's how I've been swinging it anyhow. And besides, what we do requires a little stark madness anyhow, eh? :)

All I can say is I know where you are coming from. You've put into words something that is really difficult to conceptualise. I sortof identify with how you feel the feeling you describe, but for you to be able to describe the sense of 'unreality' so well, it must effect your world very much.<br />
Interstingly, that comment you wrote... 'The only thing I even know how to do is "art" stuff, but I don't really take any joy from it, it just feels like very unrewarding work, I continue doing it mostly because of that deep thing down inside me that started me doing it in the first place'... is almost an exact a resemblance to a comment made by leonardo davinci. <br />
Have you seen the zeitgeist movement? Probably nor really what your referring to but when you say you have no 'choice' and 'takes more money then it makes', it reminds me of this documantary the zeitgeist movement. <br />
I think you are special, I think you have potential to really make a difference. Keep searching. If the world could be anything, how would you have it so it would be rewarding for you?

i like xuul lots and leonardo also ...hmmm two special people.

What do you want to do with your life though?