Ive been depressed too long. I don't even remember the last time I was happy or whatever. I virtually have no friends. And the few people I do speak to, I feel like a burden to them, as if being my friend or better yet acquaintance is a hassle. I don't really know how to explain that better. This is also my fault because apparently I give off an unfriendly demeanor. I don't know sometimes I wish i was diagnosed with like asbergers syndrome so there would be an explanation, but that's messed up. I had friends when I was younger and I miss it.
Whenever I overhear people's problem I always get angry and think to myself **** you im glad that your professor hates you. I know that i'm being cynical and that I think my problems are always ten times more serious than that person's and he or she doesn't even know it. It even makes me more sad or mad when i catch myself doing this because there are people who have it way worse than my petty problems. Then i see people living off their parent's teet and bitching about it. I'm probably jealous. Mind you these are people who dress like some gutter crust while texting on their iphone loaded with unlimited 4g or some ****.
I wish that I could live in some rural place and grow tobacco or make wine.
reason5 reason5
18-21, M
Sep 23, 2012