Seriously I Have No Life

I was with my husband for 34 years. We did everything together. We were as so many other couples, best friends. He left for work one morning at 6 am, gave me a hug and a kiss and told me he loved me. That was the last time I talked to my husband. He had heart failure and laid in a bathroom all day and died. Nobody knew until the night that he was in there...gone. That was 5 years ago. I'm sorry I am not trying to start off as "poor me" or "please feel sorry for me". I just want to get my story out. I have been so alone and sad and miserable ever since. I have 2 grown kids and 3 grandkids that I love more than anything. They have their own lives. I do not know what to do with my life. Everybody says get a hobby. My hobbies where taking care of my family, running a business and taking care of my home. It is all different now. I do not know what to do and it is driving me crazy. I try to go out and socialize but I truly feel out of place. I do not fit in anywhere. My happy times are when I spend with my grandkids but I need more. I miss my husband so much. I know I will never find anyone else. I am starting to think I am losing it. I don't know what else to do....any suggestions?
Cblack48 Cblack48
56-60, F
2 Responses Jan 8, 2013

Does your community have events for seniors? My mom attends things like an annual senior luau which she seems to enjoy. She also works at the polls when there are elections...and meets a lot of people...especially if you work at a poll in your neighborhood. Look at your local newspaper for community events that you can attend. Maybe one of your kids or grandkids can go with you. You will meet people...maybe make some friends with your name interests.

I am certain your husband would want you to continue to enjoy your life.

Volunteering doing something you think you would enjoy. I volunteer taking care of cats. It definitely helps me!