Title says it all. I never have been anything to anyone. Im adopted by various familiy member and have been sincee i was three and I constantly lived in the shadow or their kids or my sister. I was never the pretty one, I am the fat nerdy annoying unatheletic disappointment to the family of beauty , drama qeens and jocks. Lucky for me i mved in with my grandparents a few years back so atleast I have my own space. Unfortnately nto only am i the fattest thing to them (not joking ive been put on the craziest diets by them) now Im not smart enough either. Its scary because that was the only comfort i have you know? It ws something i was okay at but no they ******** that away from me too. My self esteem has sunk to the point that in the past two months i have cut my hair to cver three/fourth of my face, and wear a halfmask. Which isnt so bad because now when im forced into public people dont make fun of me anumore they just avoid me. I probably sound pathetic, but i just wish I was good enough for someone or something you know? Sometimes i get so tired of being the useless little freak i am. Sometimes i just wish I was someone else who was prettier and smarter and well normaler i guess.