That's Why I'm Not On Here As Often

I log on, say hi to my friends, catch up with them and all of those great things that I love doing :)  But for some time now, that's all I've been doing.  When I get on here, I talk to my friends but I don't really write stories anymore.  I haven't written anything of substance on here lately.  I know that's not the point of being here and I know that you can write about pretty much anything, but I just don't have anything to say.  I'm in hundreds of experience groups that I haven't written anything for and when I look at those groups, I just can't think of anything to say.  I don't feel motivated.

And the stories I do write aren't interesting, not even for me.  The last two were about something I overheard at a dollar store and about an ex who called asking if I'm going to some convention (I'm not).  Really - does anyone care about any of these stories?  Chances are, no.  I know I don't that much.  I just felt like I *should* write something.  And when I was done with those stories, I didn't feel anything.  Normally I feel something - relief or happiness, usually - but lately, I haven't felt anything about any of my stories.  

Maybe it's because life's getting a little bit harder and I'm focusing on that more?  I don't know if that's the reason, because when I first joined EP, I was at a very difficult point in life and I could still write stories containing a little (at least) substance, and I still felt those feelings I get after a story is written.  

But right now, I do have tons of things that I need to sort out in life, and lately, I've been sad as hell.  Lately, I've felt so drained, blank, tired, confused and somewhat defeated, and I've never really felt that before to the extent that I'm feeling now...With all that combined, I'm at a point when I'm considering taking care of my life and leaving here for a little bit until I get my life back in check.

yoyy yoyy
26-30, F
5 Responses Mar 23, 2009

(((((hugs))))) thank you flourlady xx

i think we all feel like this at times- youll know where we are!

(((((hugs))))) Thank you Josie :) xxxx

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Do what is best for you my friend. We'll still be here caring about you.<br />
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Thank you xxxx