My Ocd

I've have obsessive compulsive tendencies since childhood, but I've only had OCD properly for just over 2 years. It is more of a problem to my family than myself, but I don't know how to fix it. It's difficult because curing my OCD would mean becoming exactly what my OCD despises. How do you do that? When I try and imagine it I think I'll just end up completely miserable all the time. At least now I have something I can do to stop myself feeling too miserable (wash, shower etc). If I take that away then I'll just feel ****** 100% of the time. I dunno.

Kwozimodo Kwozimodo
18-21
2 Responses Feb 26, 2010

i to have suffered from ocd most of my life i found a book on it that helped me it,s called obessive compulsive disorders by Fred Penzel phd i have also gone on many ocd sites and read their stories this has helped me to good luck vinny

Dear Writer,<br />
I have suffered from OCD my whole life and my family still doesnt know most of my ticks. Some things are better left unsaid. You cannot blame yourself for a mental disorder because quite frankly its no ones fault. You should do your best to accept your ocd and maybe work on one tick at a time instead of trying to fix everything all at once. Figure out hobbies and things that help you relax when you want to compulse. For example, i am a counter (even numbers are my thing, well one of them) So whenever im doing something where i usually start counting making sure im doing each step the same number of times until its perfect....instead of counting...i start to hum to myself a song i like or something like that. It helps keep my mind distracted. Maybe this would help u. Smile and accept yourself even with your flaws.