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I Have Obsessive Thought Disorder

Does Anyone Else Pair Things Up?

By: CatMorgan
Written on March 24th, 2010

I have had obsessive thoughts for as long as I can remember.  My relationships suffer because of it, as I can't let anything just go.  I think about things all the time, every possibility, every angle.  I only believe what I see with my own eyes and need facts and evidence for everything before I believe it.  Once i start thinking about things they kind of take over my life.  i look things up online all the time, over and over , looking for all the information.  Its like information overload in my brain, millions of thoughts all flying about, rushing like wind past my ears, its sometimes hard to grasp a single thought, they seem to happen simultaneously.  I spend lots of time home alone which leaves loads of time with my thoughts.I am very controlling too, I like to know every detail of everything, and I plan things out with precision.  I hate surprises and like to be the planner and organiser in all aspects of my life.  I am probably very tiresome to be around.  I also like things in pairs - does anyone else experience this?

By: CatMorgan
Age: 31-35
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  • CatMorgan
    CatMorgan

    Thank you for your comments, it's so good to know it's not just me. And i'm not completely crazy!

    Mar 25, 2010
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  • rfpoole
    rfpoole

    I know how you feel.It's depressing.I dont have the pair thing but years ago I read about people having obsessions with a certain colur or letter or number.Since then I seem to have developped the same problem;all got worse since my wife died so stress and loneliness make things worse.I find however that with time it does ease up;it's as though it tires itself out.I am grateful that I dont get anxious and that I can at least function in spite of all.There is a Psychiatrist in LA by the name of Schwarz who is making headways with this disorder.He makes his patients concentrate on thinking good and pleasant things when they get the thoughts and eventually the other unwanted thoughts get less and even disappear.It takes time and has to be worked at.Good luck;you aren't alone.

    Mar 25, 2010
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