I Have Ocd
Im 16 years old. I've had OCD ever since i was about 3 or 4 years old. This year, it has become very severe. It's completely controlling my life. I have all of these rituals and thoughts. Here are some of them: I have to do pretty much everything in even numbers. I have to erase and rewrite things an even amount of times. Sometimes when i look at a word or phrase I have to divide it evenly. I also worry about people alot!!! I have to pray an even amount of times, sometimes even 20 times in one period of time. I also have just picked up on an OCD that makes me check for reassurance. I will constantly ask my mom, boyfriend, brother, friends, ect. if they are mad at me. If they say no I keep bothering them about it because my brain pretty much tells me they are. I ask my mom if I'm fat or if i look fat in my pants or something and she says no, but I dont believe her most of the time, because my brain tells me she's probably just saying that because she's your mom. With OCD comes ALOT of stress and anxiety! I spend alot of my day worrying about people and praying for them and doing all of these OCD rituals. Sometimes it just feels like it's too much. I got so tired of having OCD and so tired of all of the stress and anxiety that is put on me everyday, I opened a bottle of pills and I was thinking really hard if I should take them or not. I just didn't want to have to deal with OCD and everything. I probably would have taken them if my mom didn't walk in there. I had a breakdown that night and my mom and one of my best friends had to pick me up off of the floor and lay by me. It was just too much. That was only about 5 days ago. I'm still drownding in OCD and stress and anxiety because of it. If you have any feedback to give me, please do. I would appreciate it. Thanks!
By:
morgxsade
Age:
16-17
,
Female
