My OCD is effecting my marriage and my family. My husband is tired of it and has told me has thought about leaving me. It gets so bad that I can't sit down when I get home from work until everything is in its place and clean. I will do this until I basically exhaust myself. Then I definitely dont have any energy for my family. It causes my husband and I to argue alot and alot of the times he wants to leave. Its caused one divorce for me already and I dont want another one. I know I have had this for a very long time. My father was verbally abusive and an alcoholic. Nothing was ever good enough or right that I did. He blamed me alot for my parents divorce. And he called me names like fat, a ***** like my mother for getting a divorce. Even though it had nothing to do with that and I wasn't the one doing the divorce. It doesn't help either that at work I get graditude and win awards for be a very organized and fast worker. It almost makes my OCD worse. I almost thrive on that graditude bc it makes me feel good, but I am losing the most important people in my life; my family.
aapatulski aapatulski
36-40, F
2 Responses Aug 19, 2014

I am so sad for you. I'm lucky to have a very supportive husband although he is an extremely rare case I think. It helps that he grew up with mental illness in the family (brother has bad case of Asperger's and his Mum was admitted to Psychiatric hospital when he was young). I think maybe he has some minor OCD tendencies too. We have to have a first and second witness that he's locked the door on the way out! We all (including him) find this quite funny though! Definitely get all the help you can. I found paroxetine (Paxil) a big help (although by no means a cure) but sometimes you have to try a few different meds to find the right one. I expect you know that CBT is supposed to be the best therapy although a lot depends on the therapist. If you can familiarize yourself with the principles of CBT from a book that may help you to retrain the way you think. There are some good workbooks that take you through it. I wish you had someone to really support you through this as unconditional love can help more than anything. I think you are amazing to be holding down a job with all you have on your plate. I hope and pray that you will get the help and the love and support you so badly need and deserve. Mandahugs x

Sweetie-I would suggest consulting the
following website:

http://www.ocfoundation.org

Perhaps they can be of assistance.

thank you. I will.

You're welcome, sweetie! :)