SUFFERING

I HAVE BEEN SICK SINCE I WAS 6YRSOLD IT STARTED WITH DEPRESSION BUT THEN IT GOT WORSE AND I GOT ANXIETY AND NOW FOR THE PAST 3TO4YRS I HAVE BEEN SUFFERING WITH OCD AND SEVERE ANXIETY MY OCD IS BAD I WRIE IN MYBOOK , BOOKS, ABOUT THE THOUGHT , THOUGHTS I GET WHICH ARE ABOUT NEVER WORK ETC WHY IAM SCARED ANYONE MAKES ME FEEL BAD AND IAM SCARED I LOSE IT I GET OUT OF CONTROL AND I KILL OR HURT ANYONE THAT IS ONE OF MY FEARS THOUGHTS THAT I HAVE TO DEAL WITH 24-7 ALSO I HAVE DRAWERS NEXT TO MY BED WHICH I KEEP MY BOOKS IN THERE AND I CHECK THEM CONSTANTLY BECAUSE I FEAR THERE OPEN ITAP I TOUCH AND I ALSO DONOT LET NOONE GO NEAR THEM I ALSO CHECK MY ZIPPER IN MY BAG AND I CHECK MY BAG CONSTANTLY  

GIRL19 GIRL19
18-21, F
1 Response Aug 18, 2007

I know what the checking part feels like. Until I started on medication, I used to check my backpack several times during the night as a teenager. I was afraid that somehow I would open my books and all the homework I had done would be gone! I was afraid the pages would be blank! It sounds wierd, but it's true!