As The Rollercoaster Goes Up And Down, Right Now It's Up

Both of my teen sons have caused me to suffer through significant stress and heartbreak.  It has been such a rollercoaster ride for me as their mom. I realize they are not trying to cause me pain, but it seems like I've been through the mill a million times and I feel exhausted most of the time because of the chaos they generate on a regular basis.

Like I was saying before, my eldest son is working out of town, coming home every few weeks for a visit (only for a few days at a time).  The last visit was horrible.  He generated an overwhelming amount of chaos and had said & did some hurtful things just before he left.  This sort of thing causes me to spiral downward and get very depressed, as family is so very important to me.

He called me today and now I am SO releaved.  I was so worried there would be drama and chaos when he returns home this weekend for a visit.  Now I feel like we will actually have good family time.

We talked quite a while on the phone & afterward it was like a huge weight was lifted from my shoulders. I'm crossing my fingers, knocking on wood, etc. and hoping this visit will go well and not turn into a disaster!
wordsforliving wordsforliving
46-50, F
1 Response Aug 12, 2010

Parents can be very overwhelming. You have your wishes or desires of how you want your children to be or become and your children don't agree. This in itself can cause a lot of strife.