Life With Panic Attacks !!!Living with chronic pain truly is had enough but throw in living with severe panic attacks as well and you often feel that life is just not worth living because you don't really live, you exist. I am not saying I am suicidal, but life doesn't exist for me the way it does for the average person. I don't enjoy getting to go out and enjoy a cook out, swimming, walking, shopping, etc....I have to much pain and any of these activities increase the pain to an unbearable level and that's when I am lucky enough to get it to ease to the point of being able to stand it. I have also experienced a panic attack that was so severe, I thought I was having a heart attack. That makes enjoying anything almost impossible. The worst one that I have ever had, up until a few days ago, was while riding in a car while being convinced that I would be killed in an accident that very day. I put every one else in danger that was in that vehicle but I didn't realize it at the time. I was distracting the driver to the point that he couldn't concentrate because he was worrying about me. He tried to tell me to lay back and close my eyes, but any one who experiences these panic attacks knows that it isn't possible to relax when one of these attacks hit you. I know that he meant well, but he doesn't understand what those attacks feel like, how terrifying they are.
I also have severe depression, that I have had for many years. I was at one time able to cope with it on my own without the meds or any counseling, but had I known that it would have made life easier, I would have waded through hell and high water to make the appointment and kept it. At the time, many years ago, I smoked marijuana (weed, pot, cannabis, etc...) and that helped with my depression and anxiety. I want to point out that I do NOT recommend that anyone do that, the help of a licensed therapist and state of the art meds that are available now that were not available at the time, can give better results than risking the use of what many often refer to now as a "gate way drug". It is believed that the use of marijuana eventually leads to the use of hard core drugs such as cocaine, heroin, crack, meth, and others including presc
Life with panic attacks is very difficult, as I have said, especially if there are other conditions that one has to live with in addition to GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder). I am also border line OCD, and pair that with panic attacks and it's enough to drive those around you nuts. I only leave home when I have no other choice.
TwilightDream 36-40, F 7 Responses 2 Apr 14, 2012