Panic Attacks, The Crappy Gift That Just Keeps On Giving...

Here is my story. It started about 10yrs ago when I went to meet a friend for coffee. One minute I was fine, the next, I spun out and couldn't breathe, I fell to the floor and couldn't move. She had to pick me up and take me home. I was bed ridden for over a week, the room wouldn't stop spinning. When it finally did, I found it difficult to leave my apartment, I could open my front door but was terrified to leave because I thought I would faint again. Over the next few weeks, I would spin out every time I set more than a few feet outside my door. I went to my doctor and he gave me a (serotonin re-uptake inhibitor) type of anti-anxiety/ anti-depressant because he said my vertigo is caused by an inner ear disorder and when I get off balance, I panic. I was on it for about a year until it finally kicked in. There were sad, comical and terrifying experiences during that year, but I made it through. The pill has served me well for many years, I only take 1/2 tab every morning, (usual dose is 3-5 pills daily for use as anti-depressant). The only side effect to the pills is that you lose your libido completely, (I've been single for many years, argh....) but, I haven't had a panic attack for 7yrs......

Until last week, I had another major dizzy spell and of course it was followed by a panic attack. I haven't been able to get my balance back yet, I missed some work and it's been a week of staying inside. I went back to my doctor and I have Meniere's disease, an inner ear fluid imbalance. There is very little help for me so I just have to let these spells run their course. It is very frustrating, I feel like I am at the mercy of this disease. I can't earn a living, I can't get the house work done, I can't take my dogs to the park and I feel completely and totally useless at the moment, booooo : (

brokenandlost brokenandlost
41-45, F
1 Response Mar 15, 2010

Hi brokenandlost, you truly have my sympathy. I've suffered panic attacks/anxiety disorder for many years now, and I've been to psychiarists, psychologists, medical doctors and other specialists but nothing helps. They've tried me on many different medications and therapy but I continue to get worse. I'm now at the stage where I don't want to leave the house and I feel like I'm going insane.<br />
Mal :/