"whom Shall I Fear?"

As a person who has experienced numerous panic attacks in the past, I would like to share about my experience.  When I was in high school my family moved to a new city which seemed to trigger every symptom connected with panic disorder (racing heart, trembling, feeling like I would "go crazy", suffocating feeling, shortness of breath, etc.) and I was taken to the emergency numerous times because I thought I was having a heart attack.  My episodes would most often occur at night right before I was about to go to sleep.  Finally, after numerous trips to the local emergency room at odd hours of the night, a doctor diagnosed panic disorder and suggested some treatment options.  Since I was planning to study Psychology in college to help people with this very situation that I found myself in, I did further research on the disorder on my own and I realized that it is fear based.  As I Christian, I believe that I do not have to live in fear and upon further examination of my life, I found that many of my fears have often been a lack of trust in God. I pinpointed a fear of death as my main fear.  I decided that first I was going to trust my God more, pray more, read my Bible more, and see if I truly needed to take psychotheraputic drugs for my cure.  God provided me with great strength by reminding me of His great strength.  Psalm 27: 1 reads, "The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?"  I became aware that whether I worry or not, I have no control over the number of my days; God alone does!  I have never taken one of those drugs and I do not experience panic attacks like I did before.  If ever the symptoms start to come, I prayerfully remind myself that God is in control and that my life is in His hands.  My fear does not have the control over me as it used to since I have surrendered that control to God.  After studying Psychology in college, I am so glad that I didn't take the drugs that were recommened to me at that time.  I believe that there are many psychological disorders that do require medical treatment however it is my experience that fear is NOT one of them.  I believe that fear is more of a spiritual problem than a mental/emotional one and my personal experiences and those of some other believers in Jesus that I have talked to support this idea.  Does it make sense to treat fear by taking a drug that merely covers up the fear?  It is not truly dealing with the problem at all, but merely masking it. It seems to be such a common notion in America to want a quick fix for everything, a pill that can take care of every worry and sadness.  It is my experience that there exists no such solution for human heart.  I suggest true belief in the One True God as a possible treatment for this disorder and all other fear-based disorders.  I think that you may laugh at this or think that it is crazy, but I pray that you won't too quickly discount the power of the Creator of the human mind to provide the peace to subdue its irrational fears.  As God has increased my faith, my panic attacks have not only subsided, but I have been able with God's strength to do things that shock most who knew me before. I have gone from a paralzying fear over moving to a city less than one hour away to joyfully moving to a country where I knew nobody and didn't understand the language or the culture.  I have gone from being petrified of every crash of thunder and flash of lightning to praying that God would display His power in the skies once again.  This is my experience and I have a dear friend who has a similar story regarding her prior struggles with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. Maybe sending people with this disorder to a local Christian pastor or friend or even better, to the Living God, is just as valid of treatment as some of the heavy duty drugs that are being recommended in our world today...

"Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time He may exalt you, casting all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you.  Be sober-minded; be watchful.  Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour.  Resist him, firm in your faith, knowing that the same kinds of suffering are being experienced by your brothers and sisters around the world.  And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to His eternal glory in Christ, will Himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you.  To Him be the dominion forever and ever.  Amen." 1 Peter 5:6-11

Thanks for listening. = )  May God bless your day!

NinaMeri NinaMeri
26-30, F
4 Responses Nov 22, 2006

I totally went through the same thing... I got a year and some months with panic disorder but never took any medicine...I ruined a year of my life and I always think about that moment with regret....<br />
I'm a Wiccan and in that religion we believe in 2 gods which together make kind of the same as the Christian God I prayed every damn moment I had those attacks...I couldn't waste my life like that...so it got better...slowly but now I have nearly none of panic attacks and It's really all ba<x>sed on what you think at that moment...the fear takes you over and you think you are really in pretty bad shape while you are ok and just thinking about the worst...<br />

Thank you for sharing your story and the passage in 1 Peter! It is amazing to see how far God has brought you...and look at whom He is touching through you! I am all smiles!! God Bless!

Thank you for such an amazing story. I can see myself reflected in your experience.<br />
I have no words to describe what it made me feel. I am a Christian too, and believe that God is my everything, so now I don't to live in fear anymore. Thank you again.

thank you for that!!! i suffer from panic disorder and i do take pshyc meds. I haven't been a particularly spiritual person, but i do believe in 'something'. i'm willing to give your 'theory' a try.