I Have Generalized Anxiety Disorder,Panic Disorder...Please Read My Story..

I was diagnosed 14 years ago, seems like forever.I wouldn't wish these illnesses on anyone..it's indescribable..mine started after my divorce.. And has been with me ever since..I have good and bad days. Good and bad weeks. But when I am bad, it's almost more than I can handle. It's unbearable. Driving is my biggest problem. As soon as I get in a car it starts...I end up getting out of the car. And running in my house in fear..then the anxiety starts for fear of having to get in the car again..that's my biggest trigger, but I have plenty more. One minute I feel fine then all of a sudden. Bam! Out of nowhere I start to sweat, shake, get lightheaded, numbness in my hands, and my mouth..now this happens when I'm just sitting on the couch, or sitting outside..my heart is racing, I can't catch my breath..and I say to myself, why? I wasn't doing anything..there is no rhyme or reason to it. It comes at anytime,and anywhere it wants.. I refer to my disorders as a person sometimes. My worst enemy.. People don't understand unless they have experienced them.. It's frustrating to everyone involved. People don't understand that it grabs hold of you, and no matter what you do it won't let go..people say get over it, just push yourself. If it was that simple don't they know we would..they don't feel the fear we do. If they only did. I Wonder if they could handle it. It takes everything to fight this. To have somewhat of a normal life. It drains you emotionally and physically. It's not easy..it's a constant battle. That you feel you will never win. But I will keep fighting, and hope one day I will be free..
Brownezes Brownezes
41-45, F
1 Response May 9, 2012

I agree. People do not understand unless they have experienced them.<br />
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A man told me to laugh at them and say you are not going to stop me living but that didn't work for me.<br />
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It does drain your strength so try to eat little bits at a time and you will get stronger. Hang on in there