Panic Attacks Scare Me

My first panic attack was 4 years ago. I thought I was dying, I've never experienced anything like that before so I was terrified, I still am. I hate it. I hate that I can't control it or stop it even if I try. My face gets hot, my heart pounds, I can't breathe, my knees buckle and I feel crippled. I don't want to move. I don't talk about my attacks because if you don't go through them it's hard to explain what's going on. I feel so alone sometimes. I had one today earlier and I'm at work which just makes things worse. I started thinking about my life and how I don't want to end up alone and bam it hit me and I thought I was going to pass out. My manager came in and I was in the back, sitting on the floor, balling, not being able to catch my breath and she just thought I was being over dramatic. I just wish people understood what it's like, that they could relate to me so I didn't feel alone in it.
Stars889 Stars889
22-25, F
1 Response Jan 16, 2013

Hi, I'm the same. It's so embarrassing when you get one in public like you said. I've had it on the beach on holiday, supermarket, you just end up looking like a big drama queen or totally mental. Get numb pain in left arm, rib and heart pains, dizziness, headaches, all sorts it's so annoying and so unpredictable.
Good luck with it.