What Do You Think I Have?I was just wondering if anyone can help me. For about 3 years now i have been dealing with this i know im paranoid and i know i have anxiety and depression but i was wondering if it sounds like i have anything else because im really scared that i will have something worse. Il start from the start I was once a happy person i lived everyday like it was my last, everyone in my town knew me and everyone was up for a night out with me ( witch is been one of the downfall of this really as everyone knows something is diffrent and wrong with me) anyway it started of with me been just a littel paranoid of things, about my apirence mostly and the way i look and smell sutch as, but that soon got worse and worse i bearly went out and i miss my friends so much, i went to see the doctors and they gave me some depresssion tablets these help, the crying and the sucidal thoughts kinda stopped, but i was still paranoid of things, i soon got back out there socializing and playing sports. i stopped the tablets as i didnt want to get addiceted. i was ok for about an year still going out and things but in the back of my mind i was still very paranoid but i could deal with it. But about 6 months ago it all hit me back like a brick wall and ten times worse i am now very paranoid that my thoughts are been said not so much as been heard or people can read my mind, like i see most people think when paranoid but that i am saying them with out realising, and bad things come to my mind because i am thinking so much not to think them i think my brain is over thinking them if you get what i mean, i dont really go out anymore, i am parnoid that i am going to hurt someone with is a really horrible thing as i know i love my family so much and woudnt dare of hurting anyone im such a loving person and i just wish my mind would let me be that person i once was inside i know in my heart that im still there but my paranoia thinks other wise i also think that when i go somewhere everyone is starring at me,i get bad days and good days. i havent been to the doctors about this i keep telling my self that i need to go but im not conftable at all in crowded rooms like doctors wating rooms, i was just wondering if someone could please give me some advice or hope that i will be ok someday,
one thing i do know that this is paranoia and this isn't really the case of things, but my mind tells me diffrernt. but i do know that people are not looking at me all the time really and stuff, but the paranoia is still there. i haven't told nobody that i feel this way. im just so scared that it might be something worse that paranoia. has anyone had anything like this and is better is there medication i could have with out going into a mental hobital because im really scared. any replys would be great thanks.
chloeleebe 18-21 4 Responses 0 Sep 11, 2011