Where Do I Begin.,.When I was little Ive been able to see shadows.. It scared me. Of corse, as life went on I got used to them.. I also have a sense of knowing the future I guess'. For example I'll think of someone out of no where and within 2 days the person I thought of either dies or someone they are close to them dies. Or they go through something traumatic. I lost my faith in god.. I became very angry and resentful torwords him. Evrytime i would see or hear the word "god" or jesus, i would end the conversation.. im not a bad person. I can't wish bad on anyone cus it comes back to me. So thanks to that I always keep those thoughts out of my mind..Its hard to explain. But anyway. For the last 3 months, I've been goin through a hard time. I get off at work @ 3 am. I walk home which is about 45 minutes away. On my way home I go through a bridge in which about 4 or 5 people have jumped of and killed the selfs. Every time I walk through there I feel them around.mi cant see because it's very dark. I know it's stupid of me to do that but I have no other way.for the last month I have had suicidal thoughts of jumping of a bridge ( I am afraid of heights) I've felt soo lonely and soo sad as if I am just a waste of space. I shut off everyone in my life. Something happened about two weeks ago that changed my life.. I walked home again.. I've never been soo terrified in my life. I saw something follow me.. Went home took pictures in my room and to my horror... Saw the entities that followed me.. Evil demons. Ever since then I see them all day everyday now. I videotape them. It's as if they want to be seen.. i have two beautiful kids. And one night i saw how they were playing with their hair. I knew they wanted me so i wanted to get rid of the problem. I asked my sister to watch over them to take care of them. I wanted to kill myself so that they would leave my kids alone. That same night i lost all hope... Something amazing happened.. I took a picture as my sister prayed over me and i captured a beautiful angel by her side. He looks as if he is praying with her as well. After that. I got my hope and faith again. I went to church after soo many years. I found my god again..And that night.. As soon as i saw the shadows coming in, my fear my terror was gone!!! I stayed up fighting and telling them to get out. That we belong to god. My soul belongs to only my god! I see them still but I'm not afraid anymore.. I have peace believe it or not.. I feel as if I have a shield around me.:) but now I'm wondering if they want my help. I really need to talk to someone who knows about this. Help me please.
Lily6 26-30 3 Responses 0 Jul 31, 2012