It's Gets Better

My life was crazy about 8 months ago. I was a cutter, and addicted to drugs, alcohol and sex. I started cutting when I turned 15, after I lost my virginity. I thought I was so in love with someone who didn't even care about me. I started smoking weed and drinking my freshman year summer. It became an everyday thing for me. I started getting worse and worse. I would sleep with guys thinking they would want to be with me. But no. I felt so alone. I would come home and take a shower and cut. Then my mother took my little brother and vanished out of my life. It destroyed me. My little brother is my world. I had to go to therapy I tried to stop cutting drinking and smoking but it all got worse. My mom came home 5 months later and three me into a group home. I tried to remain calm and be good so I could get out. I got out within two weeks. I was failing all of my classes at school. I managed to get them up but was still really depressed. June 30th I met someone. His name is Julian and he worked with my mom. She tried to hook us up, but I wasnt really interested in him. I gave it a chance and here I am almost 7 months later. He has helped me get back on the right track. I haven't done any drugs cut or drank since I've met him. He is everything to me. I can't even explain how grateful I am. I used to think I would never be loved or be happy. I felt like no one wanted me and I was worthless. Then I finally found the love of my life. We've been perfect ever since. It's true. Everyone is meant for someone.
13nikki0710 13nikki0710
18-21, F
1 Response Jan 21, 2013

"We accept the love we think we deserve." That's what this story reminds me of. I'm glad you're starting to find yourself again and can see the light.