And I Have Hope

I have always been different from the other girls (and now women) I know. Unless I am on the pill I do not have periods. They are not just late, they never show up. This will be the 10th month in a row I have have not had a cycle. I have also have more hair than the other "normal" women I know. I pluck, I shave and I even wax now and then to be rid of it. I am obese and have been my whole life. All of these symptoms prompted me to do some online research and finally to visit the doctor's office to be tested. The only thing left now is the ultrasound but at this point it's not really necessary in my opinion. I'll do it just to be sure and because I'm curious to see what my girls look like. lol

I have PCOS but I also have hope. I am going to work my butt off, literally. I will loose this weight that is holding me back and weighing me down. I will eat like a diabetic so I don't become one. I will continue to hold out hope for all those natural births I want to have. But more than anything I will work to love myself the way I am. I will try to see what other things there are to being a woman other than what my body looks like. Finding out I have PCOS and learning what that could mean was tough. I am tougher. I have not given up hope.
ACuriousStudent ACuriousStudent
26-30, F
May 5, 2012