Sometimes I Hate That Fact

Sometimes I really hate that I have PCOS. Most of the time I am hopeful and up beat, as I have posted before, but not always. Between hypothyroidism and Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome my endocrine system is all kinds of screwed up. I've taken physiology classes; I know just how important and delicate the endocrine system is and just how many things it affects. The fact that mine is so messed up bothers me because my faulty equipment means I might not be able to have children someday. This possibility scares me and makes me feel very angry and sad when I dwell on it for too long. I really try my best to stay up beat and positive but sometimes the reality of my situation causes moments of crushing anxiety and I feel overwhelmed. I have decided that the best thing I can do to combat feelings of depression and being overwhelmed is to do what my doctor as suggested I do. I will exercise, loose this ridiculous weight and find the woman I am supposed to be in the process. I am going to spend the next year learning how to eat for health instead of comfort, learning what exercises I will actually do and enjoy and surrounding myself with the people I need to succeed. Even though I sometimes hate that I have PCOS and hypothyroidism and feel overwhelmed at times I know deep down that I can do this. I can reach a healthy weight and even if I can't get pregnant even then I know I can handle that too. I am strong and I will be happy despite my conditions, to be otherwise is no way to live.  *takes a fortifying breath* LET'S DO THIS!! :-)
ACuriousStudent ACuriousStudent
26-30, F
Jun 8, 2012