What Now?

I was diagnosed over a year ago. At first I was relieved. I finally knew why my body does the things it does. Why it grows hair in all the wrong places, loses it in others. Why I crave sugar, why it makes me feel sick. Why I would miss my period for months on end and then have one that lasted weeks. Why I became so depressed.
But now... I don't know. I mean, I'm getting treatment. But it's not the 'cure' I was hoping for. It all helps, but my meds cause their own problems. The spironolactone dehydrates me, and causes problems in my lower intestine. The yaz can make my periods hurt worse. Both caused my voice to lower even more than it was already. I have had to stop singing in choir, at least until I can figure out my new range. I am always embarrassed when the alto 2 part is to high for me, when the tenors are singing higher than I can.
And, children. I never thought I wanted children. Being gay, I thought that adoption would always be the best option. But, now that I might not be able to have children, I wish I could. Anyways, just some ramblings...
maladicta maladicta
18-21, F
1 Response Sep 4, 2012

I'm sorry. I know. Can only give a prayer.